Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Thoughts

Hello me,

Why have you been thinking too much recently? Its not only about the video editing right? Yes ,i knew that for sure.

Although u've just been through one of the weekend u anitcipated on, but you don't really have to think about in detail what you have missed, what you have done.. But its alright to analyze a bit of this and that for the future, don't let your thoughts affect your life kay?

You think youre so good at understanding ppl's thought? You thought that thinking in ppl's prespective will let u understand what are they thinking? Lemme tell u something, You gotta know that what's in your mind might not be actually what's in people mind, and most of time, you're wrong. Sometimes you just over exagerated a bit, you take that as conclusion, and that's not right man. Especially in conversation, try not to analyze too much, which always ends in the negative side anyways, since you always thought of the worst case scenario. Its better to prepare for the worst and only suprised for the best? You're scared of rejected and failing man.

Why let your thoughts ruin your day? ruin you life? Its just your thoughts, you gotta have better EQ, don't let your thoughts affect ur emotion and thats pretty bad i can say. Once this happens, chain reaction gotta occur, you might affect someone else with the problem of yourself, please don't do that.

When you're not sure what to do, be yourself, do something u like which relaxes ur self. Don't let the thoughts conquer ur brain, just let it go part by part, and you'll realize, its actually not a big deal. That's the journey of life man.

Good luck bro.

Regards,
Yourself

Sunday, October 17, 2010

21

21?

Yeah, i am 21 this year alrite, 21 year had passed since the born of this lil guy who was no one like nobody out there... with nothing better in mind, its best to ignore this guy.

But this 21 figure is not dedicated to my current age, its been few months since my existance anniversary.. its a figure dedicated to distance in relative to the earth positon when not rotating.. 21km!

For 21 years of my existance, i never run more than 8 km in a go, even my school annual run (distance is approx 7km) i never managed to finish in time. And now, 3x more than the annual run, which is 21km! I must be nuts or outta my mind particpating in these kinda event.

I was being helped and forced to register for the 21km run, special thanks to my gang of friends who always willing to engage in new sports, which so called the PBIM (Penang Bridge International Maraton). 21km is just half, the full will be 42km, which i must be somewhere highup in the heavens if i entered that.

The time limit for qualifying is 3hours and 30 mintues, which means for 21km, you have to travel at least 6km/h to be able to complete within time. Means u can never stay below 6km/h or else youre not gonna make it. 6km/h walking speed is quite fast, its okay if you do that for like 10-15mins, if for 3hours ... i might lost my leg ><

They say it will be fun! Everyone running together...Even when i go jog with my buddies, i was always left behind.. coz i m not those endurance runner type. So yeah, i can imagine whats gonna happen that day. Swallowed by the darkness, surrounded by thoughts and observable stuffs.

I can never deny one of the activity i hate most will be jogging and running. Its the same thing u have to do and repetitive action.. sienz.

Forcing myself to do the things i hate, and not sure what the outcome will be, let this run be the punishment for me to realize wat i had done badly for the past 21 year of livin... but the torcher moments of this run will never cover all the bad things i had done, thats for sure.

35 days left to hell


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Power of words

Just recently, i read on someone's blog which is full of lively expressions, and the words.. are as lively as the person sounds. She described her wonders of life, thoughts of life, and experiences of life...

Makes me wonder.. where goes my childhood??

I started to note down events during my.. i guess 8th birthday, which i got a notebook as a present ( yeah, its a made by paper notebook) And titled the book things i never forget.
I soon realized how memories can be captured by just simply noting down some few moments, and put it down like a story. It lasted till today, which i like to look at it time to time, imagining the actual moment that happened.

But well, surely wise people will comment , it's not worth looking at past since it will make ya only stuck in time -.-

Its true somehow, but its not by just looking back, its more on anlayzing what's happening back then, in engineering term. Why did it occur, and what went on after that. For me, the past is important to create the future. Like what's quoted

"the past is a gapin hole, no matter how you tried to run from it, it gets bigger, its edges yawn heels" - Max Payne

So yeah, i can say that i keep an "offline blog" in notebooks for the past years (its kinda a diary but not daily basis)

Back to the whole thing, the lively and using strong expression of words towards their emotions, speaking watever its on their mind and head, does create a masterpiece.. ( too bad i dono how to appreciate poems and classical stuff><)

I never thought of doin bloggin coz i thought of its not gud to let ppl know about someone's life, but thinkin about it, its not like there is ppl somewhere out there will read lar.. haha. So, i agree with the persona, which define blog as to write what out what she thought and feels, and its not meant for people to feel whether its right or not. Its all written for herself to see.

I got motivated, and seems like i know what to do now XD